The Final Post?

July 12, 2017

No Wednesday post this week.  Primarily because I am in the middle of setting up a spiffy new site for comics and I’m getting that in gear.  Roughly planning to start posting new(ish) page art next week.  I’ve posted previews of it here and there and everywhere over the last few weeks, and it is essentially a redo of some older stuff.  Mostly Order of the Dragon stuff.  Should be fun, going to be playing around with that a bit.

After some technical difficulties, the first five pages or so are inked, waiting to be lettered–combination of some computer/scanner issues and some minor hand injuries from work slowed me down.  Hopefully will get off to a good start and keep it going.  I do have… over thirty pages pencilled out with another twenty to thirty at least planned out to some extent?  Sounds about right.  Let’s see how that goes.

So this is the grand finale post.  It’s another WordPress site, so there is a blog feature and I don’t have particular interest in trying to maintain two blogs.  Mostly I write about comics anyway, so it would make sense to cut back considerably on this one.  To be honest, my mind is satisfied with where this has gone.  From LMCBW to the world in general, I feel as though I’ve broken down the topics I’ve broached to the most basic components.  In my mind, I don’t think one can truly understand anything until you’ve taken a subject and studied every facet of it on the most basic of levels.  It was a messy process at times, but I think accomplished something here.

Anyway, here’s a list of social media sites where I will maintain a presence.  Not going to post links to the FB sites for Order of the Dragon or Chlorine and Acid, if only because I’m thinking about merging the two sites once I’ve given the matter some more thought.

Instagram:  Post drawing here all the time, as well as the occasional selfie and cat pic.

Twitter:  Don’t do much with this, but more might come of it in days to come.

DeviantART:  Going to be getting more active on there once I get the website a bit more sorted.

 

C’mon Sea Legs, pull yourself together
You’re gonna have to learn to like
The rockin’ of the waves, whatever.

“C’mon Sea Legs” by Immaculate Machine

  • Probably going to be the last entry for awhile.  Feel like this has run its course and no one is really reading it anyway.  Been fun, but the regular posts aren’t doing much.
  • Still processing that last episode of Doctor Who.  Such a hard hitting episode on so many levels.  More so when you start noticing all the little things.
  • 4th of the July just didn’t have the same feel as has in past years.  Maybe its Trump and the party before country mindset we’re stuck in.  Maybe its that work tried to call me to work on my day off.  It could be a lot of things.  I grilled.  It was fun.  Still feels like something was lacking.
  • Comics continue to roll along.  Started doing some rough pencils on the Brigade as I chug along with Order of the Dragon.  Liking where that one is so far, going to try to do some different things art wise.  Experimenting with using red pencils for the first layer of lines, different forms of inking…  I like what I’m doing with some of this stuff.
  • I like to think the questions we ask can be just as important as the answers we find.  Do we ask the right questions?  Do we understand the difference between “how” and “why” in our lives?  While the Truth will depend on our perspective, I think it can be important to make sure we ask all the questions.  Don’t stop once you reach the conclusions you want, make sure you ask the questions to fully comprehend those conclusions.
  • Came across this article the other day.  About what happens to your body when you stop having sex.  Some interesting thoughts.  I’ve given sex a fair amount of study since it is one of what I call the “Projections” from a previous relationship.  By saying “Projections”, I mean that it was an apparent issue, but one I was never sure was entirely a me thing.  Those three or four things were ones that it felt like I took the brunt of the blame when I shouldn’t have.  Particularly with sex.  A healthy sex life is good for any relationship, and while I could have taken more initiative in those endeavors, I feel like she never really acknowledged that it was her body and if I wasn’t doing the right things, she needed to be crystal clear about that.  Stop turning it into a head game and try to enjoy it.  Anyway, some fairly illuminating points here and it does raise another question or two about that relationship and a couple of factors working against us.  And I would like to get laid a bit more often, but there are hindrances with that at the moment and I do feel like a healthy individual with somewhat well managed stress.

Common Sense

July 2, 2017

A much as I try to avoid descriptors beyond the basic idea of being human, there are times when some are needed.  In a lot of ways, I am an absurdist.  I find it difficult to believe and accept notions when there is little evidence to support those conclusions and believe it is an absurdity to do so.  I am also a common sensist–might be making up a word there.  Work with logic and follow what marks the most sensical path going forward.

There’s a great meme I’ve used a profile picture at various times.  It is a panel from a Deadpool comic where Deadpool states, “Shhh!  My common sense is tingling.”  The caption reads, “Common Sense:  So rare it is a goddamn superpower.”  And that is true.  I could tell myriad of stories about how people acted without logic or common sense and left everybody wondering, “WTF were they thinking?”  And I will confess to a few times I acted against what would seem a common sense approach.

The reason this springs to mind is basically the chaos unfolding on the national stage of our government right now.  I look at the two big issues holding attention at the moment–our President being a dipshit and the Healthcare debacle–I have to wonder how much of that is a loss of common sense.  I mean look at Healthcare.  Big issue: Cost and Availability.  The ACA actually did a lot to address these issues, but I think it wouldn’t necessarily be too big of a leap to say that more needs to be done.  Costs are still expected to skyrocket in the coming years.  So common sense would tell us that any new Healthcare Bill would have to address that, right?

As for Drumpf himself… I wonder if his life and upbringing ever gave him the opportunity to develop it.  Or if his supporters will show enough to realize that they’ve been duped.  I don’t know there is plenty about his decision making that makes me wonder if he has ever experienced common sense.  Common sense tells us it is not necessarily healthy for people to put party and corporate interests ahead of country.  Yet now we have a political system overwhelmed by ideology and corporate interests.

So we need common sense back.  We need to think again.  To learn again.  To feel again.  We need ideas, but also the common sense to put those ideas to the best use.  As many thoughts, ideas and concepts I’ve expressed, there have definitely been moments where I could have exercised a bit more common sense to yield better results.  While I have few apologies or regrets, it would be disgustingly arrogant to say I haven’t made mistakes.  I just try to have the common sense to learn, grow and do better.

And no one suspects a thing
They’re all hiding just the same
They ache for an outbound train
And the wheels stopped turning in their brains

“Dance on Stilts” by Blue Oyster Cult

  • Started doing some layouts for the superhero comic I’ve talked about, the one centered around dichotomy.  Reread the poem, “The Charge of the Light Brigade” as I began to clarify my outlines.  Settling on it being called “The Brigade” for now.  Using that as a bit of a loose influence for where my themes are going with.  So it is basically that and Overwatch as influences.  Hoping to start some serious work on that as I get Order of the Dragon’s first story closer to done.  Hopefully going to have the first issue pretty down to only lettering and touch-ups by the end of the week, inking page
  • Is just me, or does it feel like the White House is keeping the Russia thing alive longer than it ever should have?  I mean, if there was nothing illegally or morally questionable done, couldn’t Trump have laid all this to rest with his tax returns?  Or by simply keeping his mouth shut?  I don’t know, just feels like we’re getting conned all over again.
  • Made it to the meeting for the Vermont Comic Creators thing.  It was good to be social again.  Hoping to do more with it in the coming months.  Kind of fun that we have this going on in Vermont.

Vacation Retrospective

June 24, 2017

 

It took so much effort, not to make an effort.

“Florida” by Modest Mouse

Alternatively titled, “Why Do I Have To Go Back To Work Tonight?”

It was a good vacation.  I had hoped to be done with the inking of Order of the Dragon #1, I am about four pages short on that.  Working on lettering the fourth page right now, redoing a bit of dialog that’s been bothersome.  Hopefully the next day or two and I will get that done.  I’d like to be getting something printed off in actual book form, but I’ll see where I am at that point.  I’m posting the pages I’ve got lettered.  Couple of minor things I’ve got to fix on those, but it is underway.

Wanted to go kayaking more.  Rained almost every day.  Never really got around to a few outdoor projects I wanted to.  vigilante lawncare and such.  Oh well.

Applied for a couple of jobs.  Mentioned something about the soap factory to my Mother, who said it was probably a good thing I didn’t go there because it “might bother my allergies.”  And all the cleaning chemicals I’m around every night at work doesn’t do that?

 

 

That song lyric from Modest Mouse has been bouncing around my head for a few days.  Basically sums up my thoughts on a few matters.  One of the things I think people like to say is that they put so much effort into something when it seems obvious they did not.  Not really.  In those cases, I do think people put more effort into trying to convince people they did make that effort in the days after rather than trying in the first place.  Trying to buy solutions rather than getting into the problems themselves.  I will admit to cases in my life where there was more effort spent to convince everyone else of the effort put forth.

Effort is obvious.  If you’re making an effort, there won’t be much question.  One of the things I tried to avoid doing is talking too much about what I did to make things work in a variety of areas because it is or should be obvious.  I have gone into detail about a few things, but it was nothing I thought was not obvious.  And I don’t deny there were times I could have made more of an effort.

In any relationship, professional or personal, effort works on reciprocation.  At work, I think it is clear I have made efforts to make my situation and make it better to no avail.  I think people know I’ve made the effort and am focused on getting into a better situation, but at this point there has been little matching of my effort.  With LMCBW, I think people know that I made a lot of efforts in that situation that were not necessarily reciprocated by her.  Business or professional, relationships are in trouble if one side is buying solutions or avoiding effort.

“Do.  Or do not.  There is no try.”  I think Yoda nails it.  Point is, people can tell when you’re not making that effort.  I’ve been in a relatively bad situation in one way or another for most of the last four or five years.  As much as I’ve stalled out and had to make some adjustments, I’m continuing to make those efforts.  I won’t be wasting a lot of time explaining that I’ve made an effort.  If it isn’t clear, people need to start looking again.  I have no interest in explaining the obvious to people.

Your man’s gotta answer for his words, Burr.

-Hamilton (Listening to this a lot since I downloaded it)

Just a quick rant before I talk about comics.

Kind of expanding on what I was thinking about with honesty the other day, I was thinking the inverse.  When to keep one’s mouth shut.  This is a bit inspired by some of the political goings on right now, as I reflect on the general feeling of whiplash we get from our President and his statements on a variety of matters.  And how he often works against himself and his political allies in a variety of ways.  I think his tweets alone are the basis for a legal argument against a variety of policies and have often worsened a variety of situations.  Politicians as a rule tend to be very careful in what they say.  Because it will come back to haunt them.

My basic rule has always been to stand by what I say and if I cannot defend it, I shouldn’t be saying it.  Be it work, LMCBW, or whatever else.  I have a simple rule in place to stand by what I say.  To have the integrity to stand by what I say and defend it with evidence and thought out arguments.  One of the reasons I have never felt conflicted about any topic I discussed is that I put together arguments supported by what I believe to be facts and evidence.  In part because it can be easier to stick to logical, factual ideas rather than the fleeting promises of believe.  And I intend to stand by the views I put forward without denying the possibility that there is new evidence that my point of view might have missed.  Could always be more to learn.

 

And… Comics.

Had a brief respite from working on actual comics.  Just needed a bit of a recharge.  Did a few sketch cards.  Got twenty or so about done.  About halfway through the inking for the first issue.  Going to start lettering in the next few days.  Did a Draw-In thing yesterday with a few comic creators I’ve been connecting with in the area.  It was tiring being social for a few hours.  Cool people at least.One guy recommend a site for free fonts to use in lettering.  Already downloaded a couple and planning to get started soon.

Looking where my comics are right now, I think I could have been tabling this year at VTCC.  Mostly I just didn’t have my shit together.  Story of my life really.  I might try to be ready for a con later in the fall.

It’s about what you believe. And I believe in love. Only love will truly save the world.

-Wonder Woman

  • I might plan on seeing Wonder Woman at least one more time.  Definitely worth more viewing.  Have a vacation next week, so that will probably happen then.
  • I am right on track with where I was hoping to be as far as comics are concerned.  Inking is moving right along and I’ve got a good number of sketch cards/tiles drawn up.  Thinking about giving away a bunch of the tiles I did for practice.  Characters like Batman, Superman, Doctor Strange, Chandra from MTG, etc.  Noticed my Instagram has shifted pretty heavily to artwork–mostly my original projects too–and I’m pretty pleased with that.  Not that I’m not going to post the occasional Flex Friday selfie or cat pic, but I’m pleased to be using it mostly for art.
  • Funny story.  Last Friday I was getting Jeep worked on and I was walking down the street.  I come to an intersection and this car is coming across in front of me as I approach.  Somebody in the car shouts something, couldn’t quite make it out.  I look up and it looks like a group of young women in the car and as it goes by, the girl in the front passenger seat sticks her head out and makes a gesture for oral sex at me.  I just kind of stood there stupidly thinking, “Wait… What… Come back!  I want a BJ!”  Kind of silly, douchy response, but it was a bit of a silly situation.
  • A friend of mine was suggesting I look at jobs in Wisconsin.  I’m just generally like, “Wisconsin?  Seriously?”  I heard it’s a lot like Vermont, but you know what’s a lot like Vermont?  Vermont.  I like Vermont.  I like New England.  I’m not convinced I don’t have opportunities here.  And beyond farming itself–if only because it might have more of the diversity I am looking for–I’m not really that interested in Dairy Processing.  I’d like to learn something new.  Maybe there’s an observation about LMCBW’s sister and their dynamic on a level as well.  One of the things about that I think people ignored in that was the unsustainable nature of their move to Nevada and I saw a questionable pattern forming.  Her parents visit one week, a cousin the next.  Another cousin a few weeks later,  LMCBW a week or two later.  Aunts and uncles after that.  The sister comes back to VT for a few weeks in August and around Christmas.  That was kind of the reason I never expressed a strong desire to visit them at the time.  While I acknowledge my family operates differently, I would have little interest in starting a regular criss-crossing of the country.  It would get exhausting and does little good for anyone involved.  Plus, I’m in the middle of getting off my ass about making comics.  Moving across the country would just be one more distraction.
  • I talked about human sexuality the other day, and I’ve been thinking on that some more.  Probably because it is Pride Month.  Like most of the structures of our lives, we’re conditioned into thinking a certain way about things.  Sexual Orientation is no different.  If our tastes and preferences in what we look for in relationships can shift, if we can fall in and out of love like we do, it only makes sense that orientation and our views on it has the potential to shift as well.  We’re conditioned by centuries of ideology to believe that monogamous heterosexual relationships are the ideal.  Which makes it harder to question the truth of that.  I am straight, but I admit that isn’t nearly as simple of a statement as it seems.  I think the important thing to remember is that love and life are change.  Love people for what they could be as much as what they are.
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