July 28, 2016
Feel I got way too serious about politics and life the other day, so here are a few random thoughts that don’t really have much to do with anything. Mostly just odd reflections that have occurred to me.
- Happy to be gaining momentum in putting together a comic again. I like the way the art is progressing and the story is coming together. I am still tempted on occasion to revisit Chlorine and Acid, but for now Order of the Dragon still has my undivided attention. Did come up with a killer idea for how to do the revamped Chlorine and Acid though. Might script it out in the near future. Need to get back to working on the novels too. I’ve been so focused on getting back into a mindset to draw, I have done nearly as much writing as I would have liked.
- I’ve made a lot of progress at the gym in the last few weeks. On the scale this morning I was weighing in at 164 pounds–that does fluctuate somewhat, but not usually that high. Finally getting the last few bits of the diet sorted out. Perfected this Weight Gainer Protein Shake. The type I’ve been using has a lengthy list of stuff you can add to the shake, so I’ve been trying various fruits, peanut butter, etc. Raspberries have too many seeds in them, so I switched to strawberries. Not bad. Also finding I like the Greek Yogurt and Granola for breakfast a lot too.
- Trying not to be a creep when I say this, but I always like seeing women at the gym doing more than stuff like the cardio machines or yoga. Actually lifting some weights. A point I’ve tried to get across to a couple of people is that lifting actually does a lot of good–occasionally more than cardio or yoga will do. Working the muscles can be more efficient than anything else you do. Plus, there is the misleading effect of making a woman’s breasts bigger. I say misleading because it is really only the pectoral muscles pushing them further out when they are worked. And eventually the body will burn the fatty tissue of the breasts as well. So yeah, not really true or false. Just misleading. Despite that fascinating tangent, I just feel women lifting is just a sign our world is in a better place
- Question of etiquette: I realized the other day that I had not added my ex’s best friend on Facebook–I added my ex’s sister, but not her best friend. The sister had a bit of a purpose of keeping updated on her husband, who’s a former coworker and a friend of my father’s–and also trying to get some read on the ex’s mindset when we still had dealings. The best friend… we were living together in the hippy commune, so I would say we were friends. I don’t remember if I actually thought about adding her or what. The ex and I were busy making fools of ourselves anyway. Maybe in those first couple of months I didn’t think it would fit in some sense of etiquette? Is there a moratorium on that type of thing? I don’t know. Just acting half my age for five minutes. Mostly I’m just curious if there is somebody out there who wrote up something like that.
June 18, 2016
Got another segment of my science fiction novel typed up. Still needs some beefing up, introduce a new character. We’ll see who the good guys and the bad guys are before long.
Bit of annoyance that I feel the need to reiterate my stance on:
I was asked the other day if I had plans to start dating soon and when I reiterated the whole plan not to date until I’m done with nights, I basically got the “you’re getting older, you shouldn’t wait around” speech. I’m 29 years old, and in a pretty good place. However, I choose to be patient and avoid what could potentially be the same mistakes that have caused problems in the past. Is there anything wrong with that? No. I’ve bettered myself in a myriad of ways and I will continue to do that. What I won’t do is set myself up to repeat the same mistakes and irresponsible decisions that have made me a miserable fuck to be around.
Anyway, here’s the next bit of that novel. Going back and forth on calling it “Knights of Shame”, “Soul Wars”, or something else. I have had a really hard time giving this one a title.
June 2, 2016
Did a few more revisions on this piece once I got back from kayaking today. I might someday learn not to go straight from working out for two hours to the lake to kayak. Maybe someday.
Anyway, here’s the next segment in that Science Fiction novel I’ve been toying with, the on based off of AWOLnation’s first album. I realize I had a heavy influence of Frank Herbert’s Dune novels for the parts I’ve posted so far. It is one of my favorite novels after all. I suspect I’ll shift to some other influences–Final Fantasy, Starlin’s Adam Warlock/Thanos run in Marvel Comics, various Doctor Who stories, Star Wars, etc.–but this part of the story does have a bit of a setup like Dune.
May 11, 2016
A little late with this one. That is what happens when I spend yesterday doing my best to throw up a lung. Stomach bug going around. Did make the last couple hours of works a bit more exciting…
- Been thinking about that story I posted the first chapter in a lot. I like this iteration better than the last draft by a considerable margin. Less of a clunky flow, more like diving right in. I’m going to keep going with it and the other stuff I’ve been working on. I think I work best when I have a variety of stuff to work on. Still no titles in mind yet.
- Trying to plan some stuff for my vacation time. One thing I’ve talked about doing is trying to plan a trip to see Hamilton. Unfortunately, my initial inquiries indicate the tickets are in the neighborhood of $700 a piece at the low end. Over $3,000 on the high end. Yeah, I’m a bit disappointed. On a side note, the Theatre where it is performed is the Richard Rodgers Theatre. Castle reference.
- So I was planning to buy a grill, a trailer for my Jeep and/or a kayak this weekend. I have a credit cards I got through Home Depot and Best Buy I rarely if ever use, so I figured I would put some of that to use. On top of that, I got a notice in the mail that the limit on both cards has gone up by $1500. Not that I’ve been using them that much anyway, there’s about $140 on the Home Depot card right now–most of that was from getting my chainsaw and is only still on there for budget management reasons–and the only thing on the Best Buy card is this computer. My unbelievably expensive computer, but still.* The higher limit does create a bit more opportunity for flexibility. Spending smart could create opportunities later on. So I might splurge a bit, try to offer out my services as a “grill-for-hire” or something like that. Basically just looking for ways to create new opportunities. Or just play with new toys.
- Thinking about the election a bit. If Hillary Clinton does indeed get the nomination for the Democrats, I have no idea who I would vote for. As I’ve previously stated, I see her and Trump as very much the same. What we have are two power hungry individuals on an ego trip. A lot of the same weaknesses. I don’t particularly believe either of them would be good for this country. Still hoping Bernie Sanders will pull off something special. Personally, I think he has the right ideas in a lot of ways. Whether or not he can accomplish them… Also, Maine Democrats voted to get rid of superdelegates? Or at least trying to. I need to read up on that. Anyway, I think it’s a good sign. Superdelegates have been a joke for a long time and it is good to see some steps away from them.
*Part of the reason I almost had an aneurysm when I spilled some tea on it.
May 8, 2016
At work last night, I began thinking about a novel I had started but never really got executed quite right enough to get very far with it. It was this sprawling story heavily influenced by Awolnation’s album “Megalithic Symphony”. Essentially I was using a lot of the songs to help direct the plot and themes at work. So last night I was thinking about this story and got to thinking that it would be pretty kick-ass if I incorporated some steampunk elements and reoriented the action a bit. So I pulled out my trusty Moleskin and jotted down some quick notes and a synopsis. And here is what the opening is starting to look like. If people are liking this, I will post more.
May 4, 2016
May the Fourth be with you! Might be the day I finally get all the DVDs. Who knows? Not much I can really get into great detail about this week, so just some more random type stuff. I’m a bit impressed I manage to keep going on a regular schedule with this and not degrade into complete nonsense.
- Been reading Ready Player One. Steven Spielberg is making the movie. Interesting read so far. Got me thinking about how I almost never play video games anymore. Still not sure how I feel about that.
- Going to try do more drawings by hand rather than on the computer. I like doing either, but something feels more natural about drawing by hand.
- Figuring out what I’m going to do for my next cooking experiment. Been wanting Stroganoff lately, but that’s the victory meal for the end of the Soul Wars.
- Saw the trailer for the Eric Snowden movie coming out soon. Personally, I never really took the whole thing that seriously. The NSA is watching me? My response: progressively go to greater levels of depravity with my pornographic experiences. If they were/are watching, I hope they enjoyed it. As much fun as I did have with it, there were one or two things I found out I wasn’t that into after all.
- Was going to comment about some stuff at work, but I don’t know how diplomatic I can be. Some serious stuff, some strong opinions about the individuals involved. Still ongoing. My hope is when all is said and done, there will be a much needed change in the culture about the place. Things have been growing very negative around the place for a long time. It is past due for that to change. I like getting paid $20 an hour and having the good benefits, but there comes a point–and I can understand more than a few people reaching that point–where the negativity we’ve got becomes too much.
April 20, 2016
Part of me wants to giggle about it being 4/20
- Been working on some drawings, Order of the Dragon stuff, working on the novel. Been slow lately. My focus has been on reorienting my diet lately, getting that up to snuff. While I attribute the majority of my health issues to a lack of sleep, the diet still needs a bit of work and might help the focus issues. It has improved considerably though. Kind of proud of the fact that I think it has been nearly a year since I ate at McDonald’s or something of a similar ilk–I don’t really count A&W, Starbucks or Al’s French Fries. Also still a sucker for Chinese. Might be a couple more months on a year without fast food though. Getting away from fast food is an achievement. Mostly I’ve just been doing more cooking and looking up some new recipes. Saw this recipe for a Nutella protein “pie-cookie” thing I really want to try. Another fitness model one from Facebook. Also got this peanut butter spread stuff called nuts ‘n more. Salt and Caramel flavored. High protein, I’ve seen it recommended on FB and Instagram. Something different I wanted to try. Enjoyed it so far.
- Thinking about getting a dog. Something I could go running with, do some cardio, annoy my cat. Unfortunately a cat was probably already pushing it in my current living situation, so I will probably have to wait until I’ve got my housing situation a bit more independent. And they are ungodly expensive. Thought about getting that ball rolling over the last couple of years, but I have been living places that didn’t allow dogs or wasn’t sure that was something my girlfriend at the time was interested in. Hinted at it once or twice, didn’t get anywhere. Her farm had three running around already. Anyway, I’m starting to look into it. A Shepherd or Husky or something like that. Looked around on Petfinder a bit, saw a couple I liked the look of. There was a listing for a Great Dane Mix named Thor. Fate?
- Stana Katic is leaving Castle. This makes me sad. Not surprising though. Given the overarching storyline of this season, this might be the last season–She is a critical part of the show. The whole season has felt fairly forced to this point. I only really watch Castle anymore out of respect for a previous relationship. When we were at our best, I thought she and I had this Castle and Beckett thing going on–closest I’ll ever get to being like Nathan Fillion. Anyway, this season has felt like they couldn’t quite wrap it up last season and are trying to get it done now.
- Been working on my employee review stuff for work. Had to answer a bit of a questionnaire about what jobs I know, what my goals are and how the company can help me reach them. Trying to keep it diplomatic. I’m gently explaining a lot of things to them. Hopefully some it sinks in. I typed three, double-spaced, size 12, Times New Roman pages for them. I probably could have broken beyond three pages, but I was trying to keep it simple and diplomatic as I tried to explain to them I was pressured into this job and never really had that much interest in the first place.
- Somewhat related note: This week’s key phrase is: set up to fail. It was a phrase somebody said to me at work that has stuck with me. There have been a few moments that make it clear that some people have been essentially doing this to me. I don’t believe it is anything against me–in most of those cases I know I was better than the alternative and/or clearly capable of succeeding. I look at the histories of these people and others–coworkers, exes, friends and loved ones–you just see where that is just a part of their cycle. They make the situation one where they can never be pleased or have their standards met. They move on when people have failed them and start the cycle all over again. Another reason that I hate to give up on people and believe they can never do better. That feeling of being let down can be as much a comforting addiction as anything, reaffirming fundamental beliefs.