February 15, 2017
Just learning something new everyday, it seems like there are just as many questions as answers out there…
- Got my Deadpool mask. Very pleased with it. Bit more difficult to see out of than I had hoped, but I’m getting more used to it. Here is a picture.
- I’ve been thinking over something I’ve observed lately. I call it the “Hurry Up and Wait” mentality. Basically I’ve noticed people have a tendency to take what they believe to be a faster approach that isn’t necessarily so. I’ve observed this in a number of cases where the time gained with the perceived faster approach doesn’t necessarily gain you much time in the long run and at best it provides more idle time that could be used to complete tasks more effective and efficiently. Might try to do a longer post about this at some point, trying to oversimplify it in a blurb here. I do think people get in such a hurry they don’t take the time to appreciate the progression or the steps.
- Tuesday was Valentine’s Day. Or Single’s Awareness Day. Or Lupercalia. I personally prefer Lupercalia. Those ancient fertility rituals are really a lost art. Always seemed like such a weird day that shouldn’t be necessary. Admittedly I did spend most of last Valentine’s Day resisting the urge to send my ex a topless picture of myself with the caption: “This could have been making you waffles today, but you’re a bitch and I don’t like Waffles.” Or something along those lines. One of my more douche-bag ideas as I processed things–might still do it someday. Point is, all a special day devoted to showing our love for one another proves is how much we have left to learn.
- I think back on a lot of the projects I wanted to start, but never really got a chance to. A lot of it would have been getting in touch with a more “redneck” side. I kinda took some steps in the direction–getting the chainsaw, some odd yard projects, kayaking, etc.–but there were a few more I still have yet to really parlay into. A lot of it is more dependent on getting into a more independent living arrangement. Right now, I don’t necessarily have the space or resources for getting a dog, ATVs, archery of some kind, livestock… all the other things I want to mess around with. I have a coworker who keeps suggesting I buy a gun, but I’m pretty meh about it. I’ve thought about it before, but it has never been something I’ve been terribly excited about. Point is, there’s a growing list of things I want to try but have yet to do and I’d like to start in on that.
February 13, 2016
Such a weird holiday when you really think about it. Created primarily to honor St. Valentine, it has the secondary purpose of replacing Lupercalia. Shame really, because Lupercalia seems like it would have been awesome. But at the end of the day, what does it really mean? Should we really need a holiday to recognize the love we feel for one another? If I learned one lesson over the last year, it would be making sure that happens on some level every single day is more important than anything. Regardless, it always felt like making a big deal about going through the motions when I was in a relationship on Valentine’s Day. Make waffles… make cookies… Flowers and gifts… Whatever else might happen… Should we really need a special day to do all those things? Valentine’s Day seems like it should be superfluous and almost unnecessary.
I might be a cynical bastard, but I’m sure there is a strong correlation between the date and the sales of chocolates and flowers and greeting cards.
Admittedly, my last relationship struggled in a lot of those areas, but then again, she was the one who broke up with me just after I started reading the Kamasutra. Decent book by the way, very detailed. Lot of general life stuff you don’t really think about in there as well. Kind of the kick in the ass I needed to get my stuff together and realize a few things. Always felt a bit embarrassed about reading what amounts to a sex manual though–still am I guess–so I never wanted to admit it. Realized in the last couple of days how stupid that was. Sex happens and it doesn’t always go perfectly–I had a bad moment or two and wanted to prevent more of those–so why be embarrassed by trying to learn more? Thinking about something I said recently about how privacy is a myth, the conclusion I reached was “so why be embarrassed?” Honesty is better. Also was a bit concerned about some potential issues with myself trying some of the more challenging positions–concerned about my own flexibility and strength mostly. Damn shame really, I really wanted to try a couple of those. At least I got a useful resource for sexual positions when drawing sex scenes.
February 15, 2011
Ah Valentine’s Day…
The pagan holiday that the Christians tried to stamp out/convert to their own purposes which has really been degraded down to a publicity blitz for jewelry, candy and greeting cards. Shame really, because running around naked and whacking people to increase fertility and virility is really a lost art (See Lupercalia).
Anyway, I celebrated as tradition dictated: Watched porn and went to work from 2PM to 1oPM while trying not to get more depressed than usual. Actually, to be honest, I’ve been feeling pretty good lately. Self-confidence is still lacking, but that’s coming along. I can actually stand to look at myself without a shirt on, which is a pretty big step forward. Starting to work on the other stuff now.
But yeah, I’m not entirely convinced that a major part of Valentine’s Day in the modern day isn’t to just make people feel bad for being alone.