February 22, 2017
Do you know what thinking is? It’s just a fancy word for changing your mind.
–The Doctor in Doctor Who “The Zygon Inversion”
- Continuing with a previous post: Freedom of Speech. I was thinking about the Bill Maher/Yiannopoulos interview and a point occurred to me. I like to think that the whole point behind Freedom of Speech is the exchange of ideas. Put forth new ideas that open people’s minds and get them thinking. There’s a difference between trying to pick a fight and putting forth a new idea. Ideas encourage thought and discussion. Whenever I’ve tried to write seriously about any topic–guns, religion, relationships, politics, social issues, etc.–I’m really just trying to give people new ideas to think about. I don’t necessarily overburden myself with a notion of being right or wrong. And any of those ideas I usually think on more after I write about them and would be willing to have a discussion about. I know that probably was never really possible for some people and probably never will be, but I wouldn’t mind discussion where possible. Being challenged helps new ideas to form.
- I’m pretty impressed that I’m holding steady at 175 pounds right now. My diet and exercise routines seem to be working effectively enough and I’m ramping up the cardio lately. Made it to 6.5 minutes on the elliptical machine. Can’t wait to kayak and hike again. I pretty much cut out cardio completely for the winter under the rational that I’m on my feet and running around for most of my eight hours at work every night so that should amount to something and I was trying to gain some significant weight. Still not where I want to be in regards to sleep, but there’s always something to work on.
- Trying to figure out how one is really supposed to celebrate President’s Day. What is one supposed to do?
- Lately, I’ve been giving more thought to bringing back Chlorine and Acid. I almost did a special page about something that was going on at work, but events unfolded so it was unnecessary. I feel like it is needed again. Going to do some page layouts and maybe redraw some of the early pages. Maybe even make some use of various reference pictures I took.
September 30, 2016
Few random things I didn’t really touch on with the Wednesday Post.
- Going to a daily post reflecting on the day each day at NYCC next week rather than the usual Wednesday Wonderings. I figure Thursday (Various Comic Book signings, Creator Meet-ups, Other Panels that have caught my attention), Friday (BBC event, Doctor Who Cosplay, Infinity Gauntlet 25th anniversary Panel) and Saturday (Breaking Into Comics Panel, Whatever else might happen) should be more than enough to warrant day to day posts. There’s a Hulu Documentary being shown on Thursday I’m planning to go to about Bill Finger, the guy that “co-created” Batman. I put that in quotes because Bill Finger–despite Bob Kane getting the credit for decades–really revamped the character into the hit character it became. There are comics that show what Bob Kane’s original ideas entailed and they are dramatically different than what hit the page in Detective Comics #27. Also a bit annoyed at a couple of scheduling conflicts. Couples about making comics are at the same time as other events I wanted to go to, but that happens.
- I gotta make business cards at some point this weekend. Print them off on Monday or Tuesday.
- Basically a full test of the Doctor Who cosplay. Still going to grumble about not finding red Converse Chucks, but the white ones work. Here’s a link to a picture of me in full costume. All geared up with the sonic screwdriver and I was pretty happy when I took the pictures last night.
- Been slacking on the drawings, but then again, I got a lot going on right now. Hopefully during and after NYCC, I will get some more stuff done.
- Might buy a Playstation 4 and a new TV after NYCC. I thinking about the time that the new Skyrim comes out. Been putting that off for awhile.
- Bit of a running joke at work about how I’m not bringing the coworker I have the last few years. It’s become more of a joke of late, in particular because he acts like I broke up with him or something. I don’t know, I feel like my plan to simplify this trip will be more of a headache as a result of this. I hope not.
- Was feeling kind of sick today, headaches mostly. Probably not taking in enough fluids. Dehydration has been a bit of an issue for me at times, catching up to me at odd moments. I’m on my fourth cup of tea and will continue to work on that.
August 24, 2016
Some thoughts for the last week.
- Getting back to baking stuff. Already tried one recipe from the Protein Cookbook, going to try more in coming days and weeks. That’s going to be tomorrow’s big grocery shopping trip. Also trying to get back to drinking Apple Cider Vinegar. I’ve drinking a lot of Kombucha tea lately, which has a lot of the same benefits as ACV. My mom has been making it, so I have it readily available. As a result, I got away from drinking ACV. Thought it might be redundant. However, in the last few weeks or two I’ve had a few minor health issues–primarily headaches/migraines this last weekend–that might be helped by drinking ACV again. My diet has shifted significantly over the last month or two, so my digestion might be needing a bit more help to adapt.
- Vermont Comiccon is coming up. I will be a volunteer there, working as “Celebrity Queue Control.” Should be fun.
- Excited for NYCC–still two months away–and I’ve got all my books picked out to get signed, planning to do a number of things. Budgeting is going on. Lot of Doctor Who stuff going on down there. Matt Smith, Karen Gillan and Jenna Coleman will be there. And there will be a big BBC/Doctor Who event at the Madison Square Garden theatre. Capaldi and the new companion will both be there. Apparently they’ve booked part of MSG for NYCC this year. Might be a ten minute walk away from the Convention it is usual at? NYCC gets bigger every year.
- Thinking about Cosplaying this year. I did dress up as the 10th Doctor one year for Halloween and it came out alright–probably even better now that I have an actual budget to work with and I already have his Sonic Screwdriver that I bought at the Doctor Who booth one year–and I got a couple of other ideas I might play with. Been shopping around for some gear in that regard. Problem with Cosplay is you can get pretty sweaty and nasty by the end of the first day. I could pull off a 10th Doctor or a Sherlock.
- Did a bit of a 180 on the working nights thing. They offered me more money. While the money is nice, it isn’t the deciding factor. Right now I have more of a long term plan that involves sticking with this for a bit longer. How much longer? We will see.
August 10, 2016
Some random stuff.
- Voted in the state primary. Feeling like I have to participate more.
- Physically I’m feeling better than I have in a long time. Still experiencing a lot of sleep deprivation, but overall good. Last couple of weigh-ins at the gym have been at 165 pounds, so I’m making ground there. Using the Serious Mass mix to make a 1,300 calorie shake has helped. Might have been a bit disconcerting to be gaining weight as quick as I have, but I think that’s in part due to how much time I spend at the gym. I established a solid baseline to build on and that’s helped to add mass quickly. Also, I’ve been eating like a pig. I’ve also developed a weird habit of feeling myself up more than I should. Might be a bit of a bad habit.
- Well, the work stuff is sorted out a bit and I’ve come up with a much clearer plan. Basically I’m hoping in October I’ll be much more on track with getting the ball rolling on some business ventures beyond cheese. Primarily in the areas of comics and graphic design, but there are other options I’m exploring too.
- Related note, I’m thinking about relationships again. I wish I had been hitting on the Medical Assistant at the Dermatologist’s office when I was getting my warts blasted. I think her name was Megan? Unfortunately I was getting warts blasted so I decided against that pursuit. Oh well. She was hot, but knowing my luck attached to someone already. Still got an option or two on the table. Might get the ball rolling in that area if a few things go the right way.
- Why is it we make our lives so complicated? So much of it is unnecessary, so why not keep it simple? Kind of a continuation of a few thoughts I brought up recently. Seems like sticking to that basic idea would do a lot of good.
June 16, 2016
(Another insomnia post, related a bit to what I’m talking about.)
There was a Mel Brooks movie in the late seventies called High Anxiety. It was based a send-up on Alfred Hitchcock movies, primarily mimicking the plot of Vertigo–if I’m not mistaken, it has been a few years since I saw either. Not really the highlight of the Mel Brooks catalog, it was after the Blazing Saddles/Young Frankenstein phase and before Spaceballs/Robin Hood: Men In Tights wrapped up his directorial career.
It springs to mind because the main character is diagnosed with “High Anxiety” which they state impacts a surprising percentage of people. Can’t remember exactly what the old doctor says. Lately I’ve been reading up about Anxiety Disorders. Mostly to educate myself. There are two or three areas in particular where I’m trying to learn more.
The first is professional. Working nights in the situations we’ve had going on at work, I’ve on a couple of occasions wondered if certain aspects of that could lead to an anxiety disorder of some kind. I’m an introvert to begin with, which is not necessarily a disorder, but it is something to be aware of. I know at least one coworker that has admitted to me that he has anxiety issues, and it would not surprise me to find out there are a few more with some anxiety problems. So, given that there is a some history of it occurring and knowing that I’m subjected to a lot of those same stresses and few new ones, I figured I would at least become more aware of what makes up anxiety disorders with the idea of catching a problem early.
The second is that my grandparents are in a somewhat fluid state of dementia and part of that can have the byproduct of creating a more paranoid or anxious state. So that aspect is something I wanted to look into, if only to figure out if there was a way to improve interactions with them. Given their age and state, it is likely a lost cause.
The third would be that I know or believe I know/knew a fair number of people have or could have some form of anxiety disorder–not diagnosing, but I am cognizant that 18% of the population has some level of anxiety disorder and the age group I spend the most time with is more likely to have such issues. And there were one or two people I think could have some level of anxiety issues–again not diagnosing, just observing a medical and behavioral history–and there were times I did not really handle myself well in dealing with those people.
Now I’m trying to learn more about anxiety disorders. Like I said, I have some concerns about my own health, although nothing too serious. Writing, drawing, eating well, working out, and outdoor stuff; all those have emerged as outlets to counter some anxieties. The only things I feel I’m lacking are sleep and social interaction. I’m working on those two, but it is… a challenge that I’m struggling to meet. That’s kind of the whole point behind what I’m calling the Soul Wars. But hey, my review should be happening tomorrow, so we will see how that goes.
As for dealing with other people, some of those people I didn’t handle things very well with were people I was fairly close with. I was very dismissive of people’s worrying and that might have cost me. There was a lot of stuff I should have been more aware of and more understanding about. And I can see myself in such situations again. I mean, I am part of that demographic that is more likely to have anxiety issues. I could be friends or something more with people that experience any manner of anxiety issues. Being able to understand and accept those were a bit of an issue. Just one more way I’m trying to do better.