An odd thought has occurred to me the other day.  I’ve spent most of the last seven years working in concrete box, the last two working nights.  In that time, I’ve gotten numerous chances to watch the sun rise and set.  To watch the changing of the guard from day to night and back again.  Celestia and Luna at work, for the MLP fans out there.

I realize, as I lounge in bed with a bit of a stomach ache trying to sleep, I miss being a creature of the day.  If there is daylight, I want to be a part of it.  That has been arguably the biggest challenge I’ve faced working nights.  Letting go of the daylight.  Everyday I step outside of work and the sun is up, I wake.  And as long as the sun is up, I remain so.

Kind of the curse of working nights.  I accepted a long time ago I’m a creature of the day.  When I was haphazardly planning to build a house, I had two design elements that stick out.  One was an art studio that would have been intended to get as much light as possible for the bulk of the day–an aspect I’ve struggled with in my art is setting up and maintaining a good environment for drawing and/or writing.  More important than you would think.  The other was a lounging bench in a window as part of the library room–I recently posted a sketch of what I had roughly thought this could look like on Instagram.  Kind of cleaning up some of the sketches and notes I had made years ago to practice doing some interior settings.

Point is, I’ve come to realize an appreciation for the day.  For the sun and all the potential it brings.  I’m not a vampire, although I’ve written about them.  I really have developed a deeper appreciation for daylight and would love nothing more than fully embrace it once again.

Some other thoughts:

  • Did a job interview last week, I think it went fairly well.  Part of me is a little concerned about pursuing this right now with Obamacare under fire.  I would prefer a bit more stability on that front.  I think repealing Obamacare is going to do more harm than good.  I really viewed it as more of a first step than the full answer.  Personally, I think the better approach would be to build off of it as it is–especially since there’s a lot of things people like about it.
  • I’m thinking about a lot of ideas.  Meant to geared up to mess around with some archery stuff, never really got around to it.  Might try to do that when Spring rolls around.  Also might look into raising goats again.  I just think that would be fun.
  • Thinking about past mistakes.  Situations mishandled.  I’ve considered offering a number of apologies–to coworkers, my ex, odd family members, etc.–but wonder does it really have meaning?  Are people too complex to accept simple apologies?  And would my apologies prevent others from seeing the things they could have done better?

Not much new to really get into, just basic updates.

  • Wrote out a pretty epic essay type thing about ideas the other day.  Really did not intend to get quite as political or make as much of a statement on things as I did, but it happened.  Regardless, I liked how it came out.  Just a number of thoughts I felt like needed to be shared, I guess.
  • Continuing to work away on comics, reevaluating my strategy a bit.  Planning on a bit more focus on doing trades rather doing a page at a time.  Will continue to post pages in Order of the Dragon, but it will likely be less frequent as I focus more on marketable products.  Thinking about a few new projects to work on.  Also entertaining the idea of a collaborative work.  I actually really want to do something where I team up with someone else.  The biggest issue of Chlorine and Acid was that it was became too much me in the story–well, one of the biggest issues–and part of the reason I had to stop.  Admittedly LMCBW might have had some of the same issues, but I like to think we would have balanced out.
  • Working on a novel or two now.  The bodybuilding one continues to trudge along.  My general plan is to have a novel self-published by the beginning of summer, which should be doable.
  • Voted in the Vermont primary yesterday.  A bit irrelevant, if only because the guy I voted for was locked in already–86% of the vote.  Thought about voting Republican, but that’s almost as irrelevant.  As sad as it is, Trump is the likely nominee.
  • Plans are starting to come together.  I’m a bit more confident my plan to pay off the majority of my debt by the end of the year will happen.  First pieces are falling into place, working on the next few.  I like where this is going.  Stashing away plenty of cash while paying off debt, it seems like things are going in the right direction.  I think I can get another piece in place today, so we’ll see how things go.
  • If all goes well, this could be an awesome summer.  If the numbers do work out, I will be buying a Kayak and/or archery gear in the near future–hopefully without adding another card to the mix.  Shopping around for those now.  People might ask:  why archery?  Because it is cool?  I’ve always had a fascination with it.  Guns just never excited me.  For some reason, archery does.  Kayaking is more because I’m looking for something more complex cardio workouts for during the summer.  Good cardio is something I’ve been lacking for a long time.  Probably won’t buy either until the weather is bit more accommodating to such activities.
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